My very wise room mate told me she was meant to be here, that this was part of her journey in life and it made me realize I believe that too. All the mess ups and the hard work I’ve put into turning everything around has brought me to this moment and I’m glad I’m here now and not a few years ago before I knew better and learned from my mistakes. I’m glad I am the person today and all my messiness made me this unbreakable person.
Anyways, I love my room mates, they’re all nice and we get along so well and Kate, my room mate, is a sweetheart and I’m glad she’s in my room! I seriously lucked out in the room mate department!
We all love us some Norweigans.
And some boy likes me but I’m terrified to settle down right now so I’m not over thinking and I’m just enjoying myself.
Sorry for the quick update lol
I have one day and 23 hours left in Phoenix and I still have so much to do! I rushed buying new clothes so now I have to take half of them back and I still need to do laundry and pack and clean my apartment! AND I’M SO TIRED! Nervous nervous wreck! I’m terrified I’ll be under packed and everyone else will be prepared while I’ll be rushing around trying to get things once I move there. I wish I had a car, it would make my life easier. I’m going to bed and hoping I’ll get everything done by tomorrow!
Reason why I’m excited for Disney:
I’m leaving the boy I love who will never love me and I can hopefully stop being reminded of all the places I fell in love with him or all the places I kept my mouth shut and let him fuck me because it was better than nothing.
I’m hoping running away from this place will make me forget all the places I fell in love with you. Then maybe, I can start to fall out of love with you.
I’m excited about starting my new life in Disney but last night it all kinda sank in that I’m leaving my best friend. We have a bond like no other friendship I’ve ever had before, which is why we tell people we aren’t best friends, we’re soulmates. And me leaving her in Phoenix is like leaving part of my soul behind. I grew so much with this girl, I experienced so much with her, I became a better stronger person because of her. Just thinking about not being near her makes me want to cry. It’s weird because like she’ll tell you, I fall in love all the time, but when I fall in true love its terrible because I never fall out of it, and I’ve been in love with a boy like this before but when it’s friendship it’s a different feeling. I’ve always expected people to walk out on me and it’s natural to think some boy you’re in love with will walk out, so Im always prepared for break ups but leaving her is unimaginable. It’s like I’m walking out on her and because of it I’m scared she won’t be waiting when I get back. She’ll have grown up and we’ll have grown apart and if that happens I won’t handle. I honestly think we’ll be okay, but in the back of my mind I’m scared of leaving her, like I fail without her. Like I said, I can’t wait to be in Disney, but leaving your soul mate is a hard task. Almost an impossible task.